很多时候其实真得很想好好努力的去充实自己……
Most of the time I really really do want to work hard to make myself better...
但到最后时会有种…算了吧……
In the end of it...Will have a feeling that...Forget about it....
努力也没有用的感觉…
No matter how hard to done for it, it wont work....
是懒惰在作祟吧？？
Is this because of laziness??
还是矛盾？？？
Or Contradictions??(*translate from google, not sure whether is the correct wordXD)
好复杂～！！！
Awwhh~~~~So complicated~!!!!
坦诚地认了……
Fine..I admit it.....
我——暗黑鱼并不喜欢太使脑筋…
Me-----Darkness Fish(nickname given by my friend) dont like to work up my brain.....
觉得很吃力呗…
Really taking lots of my energy@@
就因为不喜欢动脑筋所以长时间其实……
Coz I dony like to work up my brain...Being long term actually.....
很多东西都不会用字面上的字来说…
Lots of things cant express it on words.....
也不会表达自己真正想要的…
Dont know how to bring up myself, what Im thinking....
久了就会变得什么都拿不定主意…
After all this while....Causes me cant really make a decision.....
一旦需要做选择，要动那个死脑筋时就会很厌烦…
When times comes for me to make an option, I will feel very frustrated like "What the Hell!!!"
没有选择时又会很无奈…
When you dun have a choice to make, I will feel much more like helpless.....
真的觉得自己很惹人厌…
I do really feel that im a disgusted person sometimes.....
情绪化什么的都给我去死吧！！！！
What the hell emotion just go die~!!!!!
虽然懒惰…但还是希望自己可以改变那些可恶的性格！！
Although Im lzy...Still I hope that I could change my F*ck attitude!!!!
又担心自己做不到…该死的矛盾（跪地）
Yet Im worrying whether I could make it....Shit you for the Contradictions~!!!!!
