失眠之夜

明明很眼睡〜很累〜 却偏偏还是睡不着..
虽然发生的一切算起来不是太突然..
虽然早已经有了心里准备但心里还是有种被压着的感觉..
总是想着接下来该怎样才好..
不断的说服自己船到桥头自然直..
不停的告诉自己只要象平时那样就会没事的..
不停的忍着心里的不安对吗？

希望自己可以更坚强更有能力些!!
圣诞老爷爷拜托让我渡过这一切(つД`)ノ

Life

嘛…最近的生活并不会很枯燥…

应该说是很多姿多彩…

每天都很开心…很疯狂的过着每一天…

不过…心里有时候还是会想是否这就是自己想要的？？

还是…自己在逃避问题的一个表现而已？？

偶尔的周末独自待在家上上网…看看戏…

自己也可以很满足很开心更是觉得这就是人生的享受…

那…为何还常和朋友出去蒲夜街呢？？

（不一定是夜店…就在街上瞎逛）

这些…还是个未知的答案…

依每个人不同的定义有不同的答案…

所以还是算了吧…啊哈哈哈哈

话说…最近都尽量少带放大瞳孔镜片…

不是担心眼睛会发炎还是什么…

突然之间觉得…本身的眼珠又不是什么妖怪眼睛…

所以啊…非想好好夸张的打扮都会带透明的镜片…

每位女生都希望拥有可以电人美瞳…

其实啊…只要对自己有自信…那你就很美了=)

ＰＳ：太过自信是自大哟^^　

果然自信所散发的气质最漂亮=3

Well... My life lately... I wont consider it to be bored....

Hmmm... I should consider my life to be full of fantasy may beXD

Happy.. Insane...Madness... Everyday never is a boring day.. PARTY everyday=p

But... Sometimes there is a doubt towards myself... Is this the life I wish for??

Or this is just myself trying to escape from the reality...

Sometimes... Staying at home simply for surfing net or movie is simply a enjoyment for my life.....

Then... Why Im always hanging out late with friends frequently??

( I didn't meant only for the Club for night life)

Well... I think there is no answer for all this yet...

Everyone have their own opinion for the very same question ain't it??

So... I will just forget about itXD

By the way.. I try to reduce put on the Big Eye circle lens....

Its ain't about afraid of getting eye infection or what ever....

Its just simply... Felt that my own eyes ain't like alien or demon or any monster....

Why should I put on the color lens anyway?XD

So.... Besides that Im going to ready myself for a supreme make over...

Or else... I wont be putting on the Big eye lens...

Actually... Every girls would wish to have very enchanting big circle eye....

Actually... Being a confident individual is the best cosmetic you have to make yourself gorgeous^^

That is the most pretty cosmetic for girls nowadays^^

Remember not too CONFIDENT it may makes things turns opposit~~~~~

Happy Chinese Dragon Year Everyone(^w^)

A very Great HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL HERE... 

Sorry for the so LONG update hereXD 

 My brother's gf said this photo looks like Im seducing= =||| Im totally NOT that><

Times pass fast after I graduated & start to work...

Day pass like meteor??? lol... Its so fast....

Well.. To be exact its New Year in Lunar Calendar... 

Hmmm... Unlike the past year...

Feels very very very different... 

Grandpa & Grandma is not here... 

My Granny is no longer with me... 

Enjoying & spending the moment together... 

Misses the way my Grandpa & Grandma yelling at us for making lots of noise...

We do still pay a visit to elder relatives(well.. My daddy came from quite a big family)

Of course I have to face question like...

" Aww... You grew.. When will you get marry?" "Where is your bf?" Bla bla bla.....

Same old time question which is quite annoying... but i think thats the only question they manage to get since we met just once in a year^^

Old folks... Aunties are getting old... They remind me a lot about my Granny,Grandpa & Grandma...

Old people.. Of course ... Lots of sickness... Suffering this & that....

Pay for the medical fees just want to survive a day more....

It feel really sad when the thing happened  in front of you & you cant do anything but just watching them suffering... 

Kidneys problem.. 

Heart problem...

 High blood pressure...

Diabetes.... 

This & that...

This makes me start to think why are human being born in the 1st place???

Born > School > Party > Work > Sick > Die.....

We learn at school then PARTY in the same time... 

After all the studies, graduation then we started to work & work & work....

Human spend most of their life working just to survive then gets old without noticing time passed that fast.... Sickness started to come after all the tiring working time when we are young.... 

Getting old... 

Human pays for medical fees just to survive... & yet still DIE in the end....

Should I just make a summary? 

Human born to wait for the death to come....= =|||

Does this means anything?

Some people PARTY like there is no tomorrow still they are going to die... PARTY means anything to them for their life?? I dont get it.

Some people WORK just to pay all the stupid no ending installment... Yet... When they are dead... They could not bring along with them...

Life is miserable... 

Human being is even complicated...

Although the ending is DEATH.....

BUT...... 

Everyone still continue their life like... NOTHING.. Bring nothing to mean.... 

Aiks... Its just a sharing... Still I would live my life...

Makes everything in my life bring every MEANS to me....

Yet Im still looking for the MEANING of my LIFE....

& I would wish everyone Happy Chinese DRAGON Year...

May the blast year brings more happiness & lucks to all of you=) 

My lovely cousin =)