失眠之夜

明明很眼睡〜很累〜 却偏偏还是睡不着..
虽然发生的一切算起来不是太突然..
虽然早已经有了心里准备但心里还是有种被压着的感觉..
总是想着接下来该怎样才好..
不断的说服自己船到桥头自然直..
不停的告诉自己只要象平时那样就会没事的..
不停的忍着心里的不安对吗？

希望自己可以更坚强更有能力些!!
圣诞老爷爷拜托让我渡过这一切(つД`)ノ

Life

嘛…最近的生活并不会很枯燥…

应该说是很多姿多彩…

每天都很开心…很疯狂的过着每一天…

不过…心里有时候还是会想是否这就是自己想要的？？

还是…自己在逃避问题的一个表现而已？？

偶尔的周末独自待在家上上网…看看戏…

自己也可以很满足很开心更是觉得这就是人生的享受…

那…为何还常和朋友出去蒲夜街呢？？

（不一定是夜店…就在街上瞎逛）

这些…还是个未知的答案…

依每个人不同的定义有不同的答案…

所以还是算了吧…啊哈哈哈哈

话说…最近都尽量少带放大瞳孔镜片…

不是担心眼睛会发炎还是什么…

突然之间觉得…本身的眼珠又不是什么妖怪眼睛…

所以啊…非想好好夸张的打扮都会带透明的镜片…

每位女生都希望拥有可以电人美瞳…

其实啊…只要对自己有自信…那你就很美了=)

ＰＳ：太过自信是自大哟^^　

果然自信所散发的气质最漂亮=3

Well... My life lately... I wont consider it to be bored....

Hmmm... I should consider my life to be full of fantasy may beXD

Happy.. Insane...Madness... Everyday never is a boring day.. PARTY everyday=p

But... Sometimes there is a doubt towards myself... Is this the life I wish for??

Or this is just myself trying to escape from the reality...

Sometimes... Staying at home simply for surfing net or movie is simply a enjoyment for my life.....

Then... Why Im always hanging out late with friends frequently??

( I didn't meant only for the Club for night life)

Well... I think there is no answer for all this yet...

Everyone have their own opinion for the very same question ain't it??

So... I will just forget about itXD

By the way.. I try to reduce put on the Big Eye circle lens....

Its ain't about afraid of getting eye infection or what ever....

Its just simply... Felt that my own eyes ain't like alien or demon or any monster....

Why should I put on the color lens anyway?XD

So.... Besides that Im going to ready myself for a supreme make over...

Or else... I wont be putting on the Big eye lens...

Actually... Every girls would wish to have very enchanting big circle eye....

Actually... Being a confident individual is the best cosmetic you have to make yourself gorgeous^^

That is the most pretty cosmetic for girls nowadays^^

Remember not too CONFIDENT it may makes things turns opposit~~~~~

Happy Chinese Dragon Year Everyone(^w^)

A very Great HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL HERE... 

Sorry for the so LONG update hereXD 

 My brother's gf said this photo looks like Im seducing= =||| Im totally NOT that><

Times pass fast after I graduated & start to work...

Day pass like meteor??? lol... Its so fast....

Well.. To be exact its New Year in Lunar Calendar... 

Hmmm... Unlike the past year...

Feels very very very different... 

Grandpa & Grandma is not here... 

My Granny is no longer with me... 

Enjoying & spending the moment together... 

Misses the way my Grandpa & Grandma yelling at us for making lots of noise...

We do still pay a visit to elder relatives(well.. My daddy came from quite a big family)

Of course I have to face question like...

" Aww... You grew.. When will you get marry?" "Where is your bf?" Bla bla bla.....

Same old time question which is quite annoying... but i think thats the only question they manage to get since we met just once in a year^^

Old folks... Aunties are getting old... They remind me a lot about my Granny,Grandpa & Grandma...

Old people.. Of course ... Lots of sickness... Suffering this & that....

Pay for the medical fees just want to survive a day more....

It feel really sad when the thing happened  in front of you & you cant do anything but just watching them suffering... 

Kidneys problem.. 

Heart problem...

 High blood pressure...

Diabetes.... 

This & that...

This makes me start to think why are human being born in the 1st place???

Born > School > Party > Work > Sick > Die.....

We learn at school then PARTY in the same time... 

After all the studies, graduation then we started to work & work & work....

Human spend most of their life working just to survive then gets old without noticing time passed that fast.... Sickness started to come after all the tiring working time when we are young.... 

Getting old... 

Human pays for medical fees just to survive... & yet still DIE in the end....

Should I just make a summary? 

Human born to wait for the death to come....= =|||

Does this means anything?

Some people PARTY like there is no tomorrow still they are going to die... PARTY means anything to them for their life?? I dont get it.

Some people WORK just to pay all the stupid no ending installment... Yet... When they are dead... They could not bring along with them...

Life is miserable... 

Human being is even complicated...

Although the ending is DEATH.....

BUT...... 

Everyone still continue their life like... NOTHING.. Bring nothing to mean.... 

Aiks... Its just a sharing... Still I would live my life...

Makes everything in my life bring every MEANS to me....

Yet Im still looking for the MEANING of my LIFE....

& I would wish everyone Happy Chinese DRAGON Year...

May the blast year brings more happiness & lucks to all of you=) 

My lovely cousin =)

May 2011 Life 5月的天♥♥

 Dear Nancy..Jarrod..& Me (^w^) @ Neway, Queensbay Mall...

This is my life..& I do really love it...

This is nice~ By the way...Nancy...

Safe trip to UK...Hope you enjoy the sem there....

Remember to snap more photos to show me><

这就是我的生活点滴…我真的很喜欢这生活…

这感觉很好…还有啊…Nancy…

去英国就一路顺风吧…要好好享受哦!

还有就是记得多拍几张照片回来给我看哦！

 This is what we so call cam-whore XDDDD

Finally my little girl dont mind to snap photo with me after all this year...

这就是咱们所谓的自拍狂XDDDD

　终于…咱家的小姐多年来总算肯好好地和我合照呗~

This was taken by the tall fellow Jarrod~ Love this photo actually...

The feel was great♥

这张照片啊…就是那个高佬Jarrod拍的…角度不错~很喜欢哦！

Love the way Nancy sing the song and Jarrod rapping the lyrics>w<

Damn~!! You guys are great!

喜欢Nancy 的歌声和 Jarrod 的Rap♥♥♥

你们好棒啊！！！

 My dearest babe ♥

亲爱的宝贝♥

Went for shopping?? Yea...All this snacks food..& we are talking about on diet that time...

Life could be so miserable actuallyXDDD

LOL~

All this...We cant even finish it until today..Swt....

逛街？？ 是啊… 这些小食都是咱们的战利品…而咱们还正谈论着减肥的事儿…

　生活就是如此渺茫~~~

　啊哈哈哈哈……

Dearest Babe again=)

She is so cute isn't she??Hmmmm....

Love to look at her actually..Im a damn big pervert stalkerXDDDD

也是亲爱的宝贝=）

　很可爱是呗？？Hmmmmm.....

那张可爱的脸…好喜欢看…我真的是变态的跟踪狂XDDDD

2 days ago..Saw a kitten??meow~ at Mcd...So cute><

Just hope that I can bring it back..but i dont think will be allowed by my parents...

Aiks... so sad.... Hope to see this cutie again(>w<)

嘛~~2天前…看到了这喵咪… 在麦记…好萌啊~~

　超治愈的♥

希望可以带回家…但应该不被允许呗…

啊~~好难过…希望可以在遇见这可爱的流浪猫(>w<)

Last but not least..My best friend ever♥ ♥

She is still that damn cute girl that I always like♥

She say that I was a stalker for saving her photo into my phone & keep staring at itXDDDD

I did it just coz I like to look at her pretty cute face♥

P.S.: Im just a normal girl...Not even a lesbian..Just a normal Friends Stalker Girl♥  

后记嘛…我最好的姐妹♥♥

依然是那个让我心动的小可爱♥

被竹说我是Stalker因为我这个变态储存了她的照片然后不断的翻看XDDDDD

就是喜欢看啦~~~太萌了说…♥♥

P.S.:我只是个普通的女生…不是蕾丝边…只是个喜欢看身边女性朋友照片的杀手级Stalker♥♥

朋友嘛…偶尔吵吵架也是种相处方式…

但太过别扭就会有反效果哦！

要相信对方多些…多些坦白…少些掩饰…     

其实并不难相处…

不必要想太多^^ 曾经有过的感觉是真实的♥♥ 

其实矛盾的懒惰（跪地）

很多时候其实真得很想好好努力的去充实自己……

Most of the time I really really do want to work hard to make myself better...

但到最后时会有种…算了吧……

In the end of it...Will have a feeling that...Forget about it....

努力也没有用的感觉…

No matter how hard to done for it, it wont work....

　是懒惰在作祟吧？？

Is this because of laziness??

还是矛盾？？？

Or Contradictions??(*translate from google, not sure whether is the correct wordXD)

好复杂～！！！　

Awwhh~~~~So complicated~!!!!

坦诚地认了……

Fine..I admit it.....

我——暗黑鱼并不喜欢太使脑筋…

Me-----Darkness Fish(nickname given by my friend)  dont like to work up my brain.....

觉得很吃力呗…

Really taking lots of my energy@@

就因为不喜欢动脑筋所以长时间其实……

Coz I dony like to work up my brain...Being long term actually.....

　很多东西都不会用字面上的字来说…

Lots of things cant express it on words.....

也不会表达自己真正想要的…

Dont know how to bring up myself, what Im thinking....

　久了就会变得什么都拿不定主意…

After all this while....Causes me cant really make a decision.....

一旦需要做选择，要动那个死脑筋时就会很厌烦…

When times comes for me to make an option, I will feel very frustrated like "What the Hell!!!"

没有选择时又会很无奈…

When you dun have a choice to make, I will feel much more like helpless.....

　真的觉得自己很惹人厌…

I do really feel that im a disgusted person sometimes.....

　情绪化什么的都给我去死吧！！！！

What the hell emotion just go die~!!!!!

虽然懒惰…但还是希望自己可以改变那些可恶的性格！！

Although Im lzy...Still I hope that I could change my F*ck attitude!!!!

又担心自己做不到…该死的矛盾（跪地）

Yet Im worrying whether I could make it....Shit you for the Contradictions~!!!!!

２０１１新年愿望～

那个我说啊…新年愿望现在才写你迟不迟啊你=3=

不过…果然还是除了新年愿望还是要写的吧~噢耶~

希望2011年里♡工作上可以有更大的进步~见识更多~学习更多~

希望2011年里♡可以减肥成功~目标是瘦8kg！！〈——不曾成功过（泣）

希望2011年里♡拥有自己的粉红色房间~！不闹鬼的那种！我怕死啊>m<

希望2011年里♡ 头发可以长到原本的那个长度~想变得更可爱！（自恋）

希望2011年里♡可以遇见中孝介本尊…然后然后现场的演唱歌曲~啊~~~（陷入抓狂状态）

希望2011年里♡可以达到去日本旅行~~~~！和暗黑SM同伴雅一起~还有竹~噢耶~~~

希望2011年里♡那个~爸妈健健康康的…家里和平带些疯狂的每一天 ^^

希望2011年里♡和暗黑SM同伴之吸血鬼宅女雅（名字又加长了=w=）见面~关丹等我吧~！我来了！！！！

希望2011年里♡ 果然还是那个吧……！金钱多多滚进我口袋！！！啊哈哈哈哈哈…我要变成超级大富翁哇~~~~~~~

希望2011年里♡最后的最后还是那个…祝福+保佑我身边的大家都平平安安&开开心心~~~哇呀~~

神明们啊~~~~~~绝对绝对要染那个我的愿望都实现啊…（认真祈祷）

祈祷~~祈祷~~祈祷~~~~

暂且这样吧~！嗯！！！要实现啊！绝对绝对！！ 

 

新LooK ~~~~

 感觉我已经放弃了部落格~~~

所以意思意思的上来更新下吧（伸懒腰）

话说……

其实有很多东西要写但不懂该怎么去篇排啊~

我的手机它它它…进I.C.U.啦~~

哇呜~我已经很穷了啊…（哭）

啊啊 最近剪了毛发啊我~

后边短了…照片时没啥差别啦…

真正可是超大的差别哇呜~

不过我好喜欢这照型哇呀( >w< ) /"~

很好set毛发啊……而且很方便~

呵呵呵……

貌似好多人觉得我受了什么刺激=3=

就是没钱的大刺激~~~噢哈~！

前后大对比~~~哇呜~

整地的毛发~啊……

好恶心~大爱啊…

毛发都坏光光啦（泪奔）

 小白果然好可爱啊~

哇呀~~~

最近都和小白在一起啊我~~

太有趣搞笑了啊（笑）

我爱你爱你哇~啊哈哈哈

这个月又去找Lin啦~~

也是很爱你哇~~不用担心（花心）

第一次坐飞机啊…

就好感动（含泪）

那个那个…飞机上到云端时那一刻~~~

哇呀~~~（亢奋）

真的好想哭啊~

太美啦那画面~~~

我就是那么村姑…呵呵

不过很感动~照片都在Lin那儿啊……

哇呜…

我还去Lin她们学院上课啊~

混进学院好刺激~好好玩啊…

超兴奋啊~噢哈~

都没有特别去什么地方玩就很普通的过了3天…

人放松了好多啊~

难得可以休长假嘛…啊哈哈

Lin谢谢你给我的安慰啊~~~

有你真好啊~！！

真的真的好爱你啊~~~（心花怒放）

不后悔认识你啊~

工作和学业要加油哦！

不过不要累坏了自己……

毕竟刚病愈…懂吗？？

呵呵~~~~

素颜大曝光~~~呵呵

小白的鼻子好高啊~~~

 喜欢喜欢~~~~

大概……就这样吧~~

还有很多事想吹水啊……

不过……还是算了呗~

下一篇吧（打哈欠）